This week has flown by, mostly because for a change I've been extremely busy at work as evident from my lack of postings this week (sorry, KB) So while it's important to note that I haven't written in awhile, it's also important to note that a lot has been going on behind the scenes.
There are moments in my life where I can feel like something big is about to happen; like all the cards are in the right stacking order and at any minute that Ace is going to pop up and give me the royal flush I've deserve. These are the moments when I see it coming, when I've correctly counted my cards and played them well. There are other clashing moments where I lose track and pick blindly from the pile. Those moments are often the most fun, full of the most unique surprises and help me grow the most. But as a textbook "type A" person, these moments pretty much drive me up the wall because I can't see them coming and god forbid I don't have it written down beforehand in Sharpie on my calendar.
I woke up on Sunday morning and decided it was time to lay the cards out on the table. It was time to fold. Not in the giving up sense, more of the giving IN sense; it was time to face my fears, time to take a positive step in my life, time to make a change that would forever shape the course of my life. It was time to forgive and let go. It was definitely time to move forward. And while it was terribly scary and unlike anything I had done up to that point in my life, I did it (and am still alive to talk about it). And although there was no Ace, I still feel like I got the royal flush.
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