Blocked

One of my biggest fears used to be waking up and all the sudden not having the ability to create: to draw, to design, to make, to think outside "the box," mostly to have one more ah ha idea. I somehow got over it, I'm not quite sure when or how. But I did. Or so I thought...

I'm stuck right now and even though I've flipped through my usual sources of inspiration, this time it is not working. It could easily be because my brain is still on vacation, or fried from too much sun on said vacation but either way suddenly I'm back to having irrational fears of having already had my last good idea.

Sometimes I envy the people who don't have to rely on inspiration to make it through their day; sometimes I wish I could plug numbers into an Excel sheet or do something as equally left-brained. But then I remember, that too would probably make me feel insane, perhaps more insane than I feel right now. Plus, that's not why I went to graduate school, that's not the way I'm wired and aside from running, that's not what helps me sleep at night when I fear I've gone over the proverbial edge.

Back to the drawing board. Literally.